Posted by: ubahleeob | June 17, 2009

Not The End


Here’s the story– wanted the job, interviewed three times for job, didn’t get job, really bummed.   Yep, six weeks of my life boiled down to 13 words.  Of course there is way more to the story, there always is isn’t there? Read my last post if you want to know the rest of the story.  I can’t believe this is the end.  I can’t believe that the God that I have believed in, the Lord that I have followed is a mean little kid.  How’s that?   I don’t think God is like the kid that gets pleasure from burning up ants with a magnifying glass.  I don’t believe He gets pleasure from playing keep away.  I don’t believe that our Savior is into playing mind games for the sake of showing us that he can do whatever he wants because he’s God.

I started this a couple of weeks ago.  So much has happened since then.  Here’s more of the story: (as I said) I  didn’t get the job, went on vacation to unwind, while on vacation saw same company was hiring same position in the town where I was vacationing (also the place I really wanted to live), called recruiter to advise of my interest, Recruiter had already sent my info to hiring manager (before I even knew job was available), received call to set up interview next morning (while standing in a bay where I had fished as a kid), interviewed that afternoon at the condo where I was staying (my commute to the interview was from the 19th floor to the 1st Floor), had one of the best interviews ever.   I don’t know how many words that was, but that’s a fairly honest retelling of what happened.  As of this writing I know that they are interviewing others for the same position, I was actually the first they met.

So what’s going on here?  A couple of things jump right out.  First, the end is never the end.  I thought my hope to relocate had been dashed, but time revealed another plan — one I couldn’t have written if I had tried.  Also, as Followers of Jesus, we will have no end.  Even if our body is killed, we have the promise that we will be with Jesus and then there is  the resurrection.   I have also been reading James 1 a lot.  I mentioned some verses from James in one of my other posts, but I love this part as well:

5-8If you don’t know what you’re doing, pray to the Father. He loves to help. You’ll get his help, and won’t be condescended to when you ask for it. Ask boldly, believingly, without a second thought. People who “worry their prayers” are like wind-whipped waves. Don’t think you’re going to get anything from the Master that way, adrift at sea, keeping all your options open. (The Message)

Ask boldly, without a second thought.  Well, let’s be honest — do you do that?  I know I don’t.  During this 6 weeks I think I am up to my 1098765 to the 19th power thoughts.  James ends this section with (basically) ” oh, and don’t hedge your bets either”.  Guilty as charged there too. The problem with waiting seems to be not in just the waiting.  What seems to bug us is the seeming lack of activity.  Somewhere deep in our cerebral core is this idea that the creator of the universe must need our help. Our senses think that nothing is happening — so bless God, we are going to give him a hand.  We have to be doing all we can do, we have to be available (which is code for doing all you can do). We have to make sure that every stone is overturned, every road is explored, every thought or whisper is parsed and discerned.  It’s almost as if God would be surprised to learn that we are broken, mistake prone creations in need of his constant help.

Ok, this is starting to ramble  so let me see if I can land this puppy.   What have I learned so far?  No matter where you are, it is not the end.  No matter how bleak it seems, God is still there — Aslan still roams about.  I don’t understand why life takes us down the roads that it does.  I don’t know why the God that said “enter in through the narrow gate” and “straight is the path” has to take us on such ….. interesting routes, but he does. Regardless of the path, regardless of the road, whether I get this job that I want or not — one truth remains; this is not the end.



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